*A version of this post was previously published on 3/29/17. This post contains affiliate links.
I used to believe self care meant being selfish, until I had neglected my own health to the point of developing high blood pressure, my hips being destroyed by arthritis and enduring more pain than anyone should!!
It’s been really hard for me to admit that I’m the needy one now and it’s okay to take care of myself and make some of my own needs a priority once in awhile.
It’s been hard for me to accept that now I’m the one with fragile health who needs special treatment.
I have a health condition and I am disabled.
I need to acknowledge that and respond accordingly.
I need to stop pretending I can still do everything myself.
Trying to control my blood pressure with diet and exercise alone is not working anymore.
I can’t stand in one spot even just long enough to cut up vegetables for a salad because that causes excruciating leg pain.
It is impossible for me to get down on my hands and knees to scrub the shower floor, anymore.
Walking just a few feet without holding onto a shopping cart also causes unbearable leg pain.
I can’t climb stairs.
I walk as slow as a sloth.
And, I’ve had to give up driving and with it my independence.
If I want to stay alive for as long as possible for my family, I need to make some major changes in the way I’ve been doing things.
I need to check in with my doctors regularly.
I need to ask for help with cooking and cleaning.
I need to use special equipment, such as handles on the shower and toilet seat.
I need to have my hips replaced!